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Ever feel as though it seems there is no hope? Im sure others do. Really. For years I have been trying to start a family to no avail. I feel as a complete failure and a sorry excuse for a female. I see and know all these people with families that have children and I sit at home and cry myself to sleep at nights. I am married to the most amazing man I have ever known and I cant even give him a family. What use am I? I am a waste of flesh and oxygen. I have been through all types of fertility treatments and nothing ever works. PCOS is the reason I am unable to conceive successful I am told. Lose weight they say...."oh and by the way its going to be even harder for you to lose weight having the PCOS....Your metabolism will work even slower now and you will find that you have insulin resistance. So good luck to you!" Meaning I dont ovulate. And while its true that military health care will provide some of the fertility treatments they dont pay for IVF or donor eggs. So basicly if the drugs dont work I have no hope. And guess what....they havent worked. IVF and donor eggs are outrageously expensive as is adoption. I suppose we could always do the foster care to adoption program but its not the same. I really want a child of my own.....something we both made together. A product of us. I find myself not even wanting to wake up in the mornings. I dont even have the will to servive any more. I am alone through all this.
Others say to talk to people on message boards that are going through the same thing but how can it help? They are strangers. A How does that help solve my problem? My husband deserves someone that give him a family. Someone that can honor him in a way I will never be able to..... I wish God would just take pity upon me and allow me release from this life.

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Galay

10 months, 2 Weeks, 3 days, 21 hours, 7 minutes ago

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