I am here because It tiptoed into my life, fibro..

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I have numerous health issues and I am only 50..now without health insurance, lost my home, and this is the best way to describe how it all started.. Where Did You Come From?

It tiptoed into my life. It was unnoticed for a while. Then it started to grip in areas like no other. I went about my “life” trying not to acknowledge it was a part of me. I was praying to God this part of me would tiptoe out as it softly stepped in. Life was good! I didn’t want anything to step in the way and knock me off my path!

So eager to get rid of this gnawing problem I decided to get some advice. I was not ecstatic when I got the news. I went into denial. I wasn’t born with this, why did it grip me? Will it get worse?

I went into denial mode. I tried to live my life during the day as usual. I cried at night when no other could see me. I lost sleep because the tiptoeing was becoming a heavy foot! Fear stepped in. I kept it inside until one day I just could not manage it any more. I was run down; getting sick all the time. The heavy foot was getting the best of me. I needed to make life changes.

Me adapt? Oh no! I didn’t go to school and work hard in my career to have to go out on disability! This is not what I wanted! My home, my husband and my family needed my entire income. How could we get by? This part of me that I did not invite into my body was running my life.

Sadness set in; reality was that I was unable to continue doing what I wanted to. I could not rebel anymore.

Life changes can be good or bad. IT is how you embrace them. Acceptance is a wonderful quality if you have the guts to let it in. I didn’t have a choice any more. The heavy foot had become one that had to be managed daily.

It is hard work; all that I can do for now. I try to make time for myself; but if the medicine along with the “mind over matter” attitude does not kick in, then I give the day to the heavy foot.

This is what chronic pain does to you

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