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I really can't imagine that anyone cares to hear my sad tale. I’m 46 and have apparently been depressed most of my life, thanks to insensitive parents and a childhood filled with emotional abuse of the sarcastic, ridiculing variety. I’m a recovering alcoholic of 15 years; have a 20 year mostly-happy marriage, and a 19 year old son in the Navy, and all I really want to do is go to sleep and never wake up.
I’ve been taking Effexor for about 3 years now, and can no longer afford it. My husband lost his good job that had benefits, when the stupid broad that inherited the place decided she’d rather liquidate and put more than 10 people out of work than to sell the place outright to someone else. I had to stop seeing a psychiatrist then, but fortunately my internist began writing my prescriptions for Effexor.
Although it seemed a real stroke of fortune when our son joined the Navy, as we couldn’t afford to put him in college, in January this 19 yr old boy was found to have child pornography on his computer, and is now in the process of being drummed out of the Navy, complete with 4 years mandatory, penal “treatment” from which he will emerge at the age of 23 with a lifetime obligation to register as a sex offender – this good boy, this brilliant (genius-IQ), amazing, loving, sensitive person. Needless to say, I suppose grandchildren are now out of the question, since even if he married and managed to produce any – most unlikely at this point – I would never rest easy with my own beloved son in proximity to children. So my “immortality” has been cut short, probably cut off completely, and the quality of his life has been compromised for all time, and that is NOT justice, not by any stretch of imagination.
My own body seems to be letting me down as much as anything else ever has; though I am just 46, I’ve been experiencing perimenopause for more than 10 yrs already, with no end in sight – hot flashes, night sweats, mood swings |
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Carmilla |
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