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contintued on my all time low 6 (2)
My family, well…as supportive as they are, they DO NOT understand what I’m feeling, and just tell me to ‘snap out of it’ or ‘go back to work, keep yourself busy’. That’s what sent me this direction in the first darn place. What do I do now? Besides call the doctor in a ½ hour? I just hope he has an answer for me. I cannot keep going like this.

I’m so sorry this is so long, it’s all built up on me for so many years, and none of it made sense until now. And NOW no one is listening to me. I feel like that girl in the movie “Titanic” I’m standing in a room full of people screaming, yet no one is hearing me.
I guess that’s all for now. There’s so much more I could explain, could go into detail about, yet I’m sure by now you get the gist of it all. So it would be pointless. Thanks for reading this.
I wrote this story in it's entirety about 1 month ago. I have now been diagnosed, was taking classes about bipolar, and trying to treat it with natural methods. I finally broke down again last night at work. Having panic attacks, and anxiety attacks each and every day I go to work sucks. The holistic way didn't work, or simply didn't work soon enough. I came home at 5pm after only being there 2 hours and after talking to social services. She said she would try to get me in to see a therapist. Said she would call. She didn't. I haven't told my boss my diagnosis. Don't want people to know. It's hard enough living day in day out with this, let alone the whole world knowing I have these issues.
Now I'm waiting until 8:30am, I'm going to be calling my doctor, and seeing about getting on meds, real actual bipolar meds. Calling social services back at work and finding out if she heard from the therapist yet. I am supposed to go into work tonight. But I don't want to. Anyone know what a panic attack is like. Where you can't think, can't breath and just feel like you need to run. Imagine that every day. Until I get this under control I can't work. I have to come to terms with that.
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