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My mother passed away when I was four years old. Having a history of mental illness in the family, i was forced up until the age of 12 years old to repeatedly be consulted by doctors who seemed to think that the great loss i had suffered could in no way have left me in any state other than entirely and utterly depressed. When I got too old and strong enough to finally fight off the people who literally had to drag me to these doctors offices, I finally felt free from the notions fed to me for the past several years that not only was i crazy, i was clinically depressed. It wasnt until my junior year in college when a series of events occurred that finally made me believe that what those doctors had been saying all those years were true. I truly WAS clinically depressed, and i had no way of controlling my feelings, except by the intake of marijuana which helped me focus my energies on something creative to preoccupy my mind, or if i were so lucky as to stumble upon a tab of adderall or two, which a friend of mine would help me out with at the most critical of moments. I had never believed in psychotherapy until I had finally known how it felt to lose the sheer desire to live. Everyday was not a new day with new endeavors. Everyday had become a challenge to simply get through until bedtime. Everyday was a struggle to make it mere hours without shedding uncontrollable tears. It wasn't until I had made my own personal decision to return to a mental health physician that I finally admitted my diagnosis. I had major depression, and the New England weather, combined with the amount of losses I had suffered that past year, were not making way for any improvement. With the prescription granted for the relief of these unnerving/hopeless feelings, it was the Adderall and Xanax that truly helped lift me back upon my feet. The Adderall made it possible for me to take my bad brain waves and direct them elsewhere by keeping myself busy, be it mentally or physically.

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